Drama note, not. Just a
quick update on what I recently found out. For several years in my
life, or maybe forever I used to divide people in categories. Those
to whom I occasionally speak, those that we have fun together and
those that are my bestest friends. The latter for me were people that
I'd share almost everything with, never let down or abandon or leave
behind or forget or whatever. And of course people change , evolve.
And once we change the same people we used to like we now don't and
vise versa . The thing is we all change at times. Does that mean that
we can never keep a lifetime friend? Is everyone disposable with an
expiration day on the back of their neck? I asked one of my teachers
a couple days ago if she had any friends from teenhood. She said yes
so I asked. Who is most important to you, your ever loving friends or
your husband. She picked her soul mate. So I though that coupling
actually destroys friendships. You cant actually be in a serious
relationship and be what you were with your friends. Sounds logical
sometimes. But think of what friends do for one another on more harsh
times. Break ups, fights, changes, dreams. And of course if you are
the friend who forgot you will be now saying: I grew up, I now think
of all my past emotional outbreaks and laugh, I have my soul mate
now. So what the f*ck??? Seriously? Was I a crying rag sh*t?
Getting into a
relationship is a trend. Becoming b*tchy is a trend. Being jealous of
your friends is a trend. And all those trends somehow become style.
And style always remains, as the great Coco said about a century ago.
Throughout all these
thoughts I realized that no one really cares about you that much as
they say the do or think they do. They all say with this pityfull
little style : “Come on, I care about you, dont get greedy”. F*ck
off. Its a cliché baby dont do it. You do not care anymore cause
your whole life revolves around something specific and I aint a part
of it. The only thing that is sad about these situations is the loss
of individuality. People getting attached to one another, losing
their lives to the name of eternal love. 20 years later you wanna die
but you have 80 children to take care of.
Whatever. Thanks god I can
easily let go of my feelings for someone, which might sound bad but
trust me, when someone does not deserve me anymore, I know it better
than anyone else and leaving is the bestest of the choices. Cause if
you do not make such a choice sooner or later you'll be a pillow and
a pillow only. Good for hugging and crying on, but when the owner is
happy the pillow now becomes her or his new date.
Yours,
Leonidas Villano